Today is my birthday. My 28th birthday, to be exact. I've always loved birthdays, especially my own. I mean really, what's wrong with a day that's all about wonderful, fabulous YOU! :) I know so many people who hate getting older and hate their birthdays because it reminds them of this fact, but every January 5 is like a special holiday just for me. It's not even about the gifts, although that's always nice. It's just about being happy I'm alive, smiling and feeling good about life.
Obviously my birthday is pretty close to Christmas. Growing up my parents always made a point to separate Christmas and my birthday so I wouldn't feel cheated, but one of the perks of having a birthday so close to the holidays is that it extends them. We always keep the Christmas tree and decorations up until after January 5, it means more fun dinners out and presents and family time. Thanksgiving through today always meant special times.
As regular readers know, these past few months have been rough for us. I hit a low point on New Year's Eve (SP was sick, we'd had to cancel plans with our friends and I spent most of the day on the couch feeling sorry for myself) and all I could think was "I can't wait for 2008 to be over!" We ushered in 2009 with the burning of the bad from 2008 and the planting of our hopes and dreams for 2009. At my first birthday celebration on Saturday, when I blew out the candles on my delicious cake, in addition to my real wish I wished for things to be different in 2009.
Today I happened to wake up at 12:00am on the dot. All I could do was smile and wish myself a happy birthday. And I haven't stopped smiling since. Between the happy birthday hug and kiss I got from SP while I was still in that blissful sleep/wake state all snug in bed this morning to the sushi lunch, homemade cupcakes, cards and gifts from my coworkers to the promise of a fantastic Mexican dinner tonight, it's just been a great day. After feeling so low for so long it almost feels wrong to be happy. Maybe I'm just out of practice, but it feels sore, almost like a muscle I haven't exercised in awhile. I keep searching deep within myself to find that little pang of sadness, but it isn't there. I'm just enjoying my day, smiling to myself and feeling, in the very dark and dusty parts of my heart, as if something has changed. Something feels different. I can't put my finger on it, but I think 2009 is going to be a good year. I hope I'm right. We could really use some goodness in our lives, but for now I'm not going to worry about that. I'm just going to enjoy this feeling and the last few hours of my special day.
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Happy birthday to me!
Monday, January 05, 2009
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Happy Birthday, LS! Sounds like a great one :)
ReplyDeleteLove,
Big Sarah
happy birthday! : )
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday and I hope you have a wonderful evening.
ReplyDeleteI don't post much but I want you to know that I visit your site every day. And last week, for New Year's Eve in fact, I made the little pizza pockets. They went over well at my house, too, but next time I think we will do half with a mozzarella and pepperoni mix and the others to spinach.
Anyways, I am sorry to hear you've been so blue but it sounds like you are well on your way to making 2009 much happier.
Happy Birthday! I hope you had a great day and it sounds like you did! I can realate to the birthday near Christmas thing (December 17). I'm glad you are enjoying your day - and I hope even when your birthday is over, that smile continues to grow! :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday! I'm so glad to hear you're having a good day - you deserve it! I keep saying "2009 is going to be a better year - bring it on!"
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday!
ReplyDeleteI have a good feeling about 2009 for you :)
awww, Happy Birthday HC!! I'm with you on feeling that 2009 is going to be a good year. Best wishes to you!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday! I love reading your delectable blog entries!
ReplyDeleteYay for the new year and bday!
ReplyDeleteAw, sweetie! What a wonderful post. Happy, happy birthday to my most special baby! I KNOW that 2009 is going to be a wonderful year for all of us!!! Hugs and kisses from your biggest supporter!!
ReplyDeleteHappy Belated Birthday! The 5th is mine as well. :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Belated Birthday! Hope you had a chance to celebrate over the weekend or this coming weekend!
ReplyDeleteThis post brought tears to my eyes. I really do have so much love for you. I have a feeling your life is going to be full of joyful surprises. Things don't always happen the way you think they will - as you well know - but they happen the way they should, when they should. It sounds cliche, but I have been down some devastatingly hard roads and I truly believe it. Here's to 2009 being the start of a new road for you.
ReplyDeleteDon't let go of the happiness. Hold on to it tight. :)
And one more thing - I made spaghetti carbonara last night HA! Only as I was at the grocery store did it occur to me... wait, she told me about carbonara... she loves it... I'm making it on her birthday. It was like a birthday tribute hehehe. Unintentional, but still. :D
Your post made me smile! Hang in there woman! You know I love ya alot and I to, wish you a spectacular 2009!
ReplyDeleteI hope that your birthday was truly fabulous. You definately deserved it.
ReplyDeleteWarmest wishes for 2009.
Carol :)
Hope you had a wonderful birthday! Your going to have a great 2009!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday!!! Glad it's a good one and here's to a great 2009!
ReplyDeleteThank you to everyone for the birthday wishes! I really love knowing you are all out there, rooting for us. :)
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